Ciao 2009

What an end to a wild, wild year.. 
..and here I am, spending the last hour of it.. blogging about it


Do I mind that I spent the past two days alone, working at WaSa, having 0% contact with the outside world  minus WaSa customers & employees... & 5 phone calls (3 of them being with my dad) and decided not to do anything special to count down the new year? No, not really. Will you think I am a loser and a loner? Yes, probably. Hahaha... 


One word that sums up 2009: Sighahh ©


Now, I put the copyright sign because Saehoon & I coined that word earlier this year. It is a word that describes a long sigh of deep breath from God-given satisfaction.. 


I guess this year marks a very significant point in my life. Through all the sighahh moments, I experienced a part of God that I had never encountered before. He made himself so transparent to me that there were no options for me. I would give you an entire year's worth of testimony, but that would be a bore. 


All I can say is that every decision I made this year was by baby faith, and every sighahh result of it was through grace. Every time God would throw me into a situation, I would be reluctant, disobedient & confused, but there would be no way out (i.e. Nicaragua). Once I accepted the situation, God would just blast it & zoom 200% into it... and I would just sit there, literally, and be ggpwn3d. That feeling goes hand-in-hand with the sighahh's. 


I really do not know why He picked this year, but He did. A lot of times I would wonder if people around me felt the perfection of God the way I did. But seriously, God! When I was in Nicaragua, Will & I would point a finger up to God and say, "That God", while wagging our finger. I think we did that every day in the month-long trip. We experienced God's ggpwnage every day and we would sighahh about it.


This entry is ambiguous. I said a lot without really saying much at all. 


All I have left to say is that 2009 was my favorite year in my life. Definitely something I would be able to say tonight. It is now 10 minutes to the new year and I am very well satisfied in God. He is too good to me. I love you, God. 

Bailamos

It takes two to tango.

This is Annimal & I, post-sleepf.o.l.ver this past quarter. Christina woke up to this.. Like mama, like daughter..<3

Dance with me.

Urgency.

I have a very bad tendency to live life too comfortably..

I do this until I see the end of the road, which then leaves me at a panic state with "sudden" urgency.

Care to read..?

1. I have been saying I will go abroad throughout college. I waited until the day before the ISA deadline to finally decide and apply. I knew it would be my last chance. Through crazy paperwork & low funds, I waited until the last minute to get everything done. I paid my dues by spending 6 hours at the Spanish Consulate office yesterday because I did not purchase my plane tickets earlier. But thanks to the urgency, it is confirmed that I am now Spain-bound in a month.

2. WaSa-- the love of my life-- has been the home of my humble sushi waitressing job for the past 38 months (3 years and 2 months!). The kitchen guys, who are all Mexican, are like my brothers whom I have really wanted to share the Gospel with for years. When I found out I was quitting, (*stab*in*heart*!): I realized I had less than 3 months to do this before I left for Spain. Oh~ the urgency! Within that week, I found a local Hispanic church que se llama, Rios de Agua Viva. There were 2 conditions that they gave me when finding a church. 1) It had to start past 1pm because they have weekly soccer games, and 2) It had to end in time for them to go to work by 4pm. The first & only church we had to visit met both those requirements. I have been missing my home church for the past 7 weeks, but God has been blessing me so much through this experience. I would have never imagined myself going to a Hispanic church, as the only chink-eyed Korean girl with 5 WaSa brothers. The most amazing part about this whole thing is how much I see them opening their hearts to God. They want a bible. They want Christian music. Most importantly, they keep coming every Sunday. I had to miss this past Sunday because my home church got a new EM pastor. I assumed they would miss if I bailed on them, but I called Sunday morning and told Juan I could not make it.. Sure enough, they all went! There is nothing more than being called to bring His people to Him. God loves Juan, Carlos, Jaime, Oscar & Mario. All He wanted me to do was bring them to Him and He makes all things well. What made me wait until now..? My sinful comforts and blindness. People, URGENCY.

3. I spent my last quarter knowing that my Sociology majors seminar course was based on one research paper. In the past couple weeks, my group mates started their chapters, but I did not. Our chapters, 15-18 pages, are being binded tomorrow morning at 10 AM. My group mates are done, but they extended the binding for me because I have only 6 pages at this very moment. I realize, now, that there is an urgency for me to get off my ass and write this research paper.

YamorY,

estef.

Finally...

I could never get myself to start my blog because a) I did not know what to title my blog, b) the names I would think of were already taken (i.e. moreamore, lovestef), c) the prolonged debut of my blogspot meant more thoughts taking up storage space in the head which gave me an ache to run away from...

but I am here, now. Finalmente.

I guess my multiple rejections of blogspot names resulted in...

amoreestef. amorestef.